Topics: Ramblings, Standard

RAMBLINGS

       I have started and quit magic more times than I care to admit. Since I recently restarted, and by recently I mean Innistrad block, in the back of my mind the question had already started lingering again, "When you going to quit?"A good question. But being the older wiser self that I currently am (no laughing in the peanut gallery, that includes my fellow writers), I knew this was something I need to analyze here and now, because if I was just going to quit again why even restart.

       Being the insane person I am, I decided to have an internal (external would have made me look too crazy) conversation about this perplexing and potentially looming dilemma. I started with the hard questions. I asked myself the most important question of all, "Why do I play magic?" The one word answer: competition. I love competition. I absolutely get a kick out of testing myself against someone else. I mean it puts my adrenaline in overdrive and gets the juices flowing. I know why I play, then "Why do I quit?" Short answer: competition. Upon further introspection and conversation, I find that I get dismayed or frustrated at things where I want to compete, but don't feel like I can give my all to the competition, and as my Dad likes to say, "Anything worth doing, is worth doing right."

       So the reason I play and the reason I quit are the same thing, I really am insane. Or maybe I just need something that I didn't have the times before, but I do have now, balance. I have learned to juggle the many requirements I have and in doing so I have since realized that there is never going to be a point in my life where I get to just focus on Magic and have nothing else to worry about, but I can, with planning, attend enough high level Magic to make it worth the time, investment, and effort to enjoy this fantastic hobby again. That and I had answered my own 'Desperate Ravings,' I knew what I needed to mentally prepare for, not being able to attend every event I want, but to just enjoy the events I am able to go to and not worry if I am ever going to prove myself 'good enough.' The point for everyone else: know why you play and what you want out of it. End Rant.




PS>  My step brother mentioned to me the other day about getting back in and what he should focus on so that he can become the player he use to be. That my friends sounds like a good article for a future time.